Digging Deep

I have, as of late, been plagued by what can only be described as a general feeling of discontentedness. I have a wonderful wife, a beautiful, home, a good job, and a new granddaughter on the way. God has been very generous to me. I spent the whole day today trying to get to the core of my problem. I, I discovered, am not lacking any physical thing that will bring happiness. I am lacking relationships. Hard to say but the truth nonetheless. I have never been good at developing friendships. Many men have piggybacked on their wife's social adeptness and have found relationships through her. Alas that is not to be in my case. My wife is an introvert. Socializing to her is akin to putting on a hard hat and going to work. At the end of a thirty minute visit she is visibly exhausted and spent.
So here I am craving Christian fellowship and after a life of not needing anyone but myself , I find myself ignorant on how to proceed. I can't be the only man in this situation can I ?

The Journey

The saying goes "Don't judge me until you have walked a mile in my shoes". I think every person alive can lay claim to that.  We all have unique journeys that have shaped us into the person we are today. I am no different.
I am nearing the last page of the second book of my life and with that comes reflection and change. Nearing retirement, I am going to use my 54 years of "seasoning" to tack in a new direction. I will use the victories, failures, joys and hurts from my first two books as guidestones as I set a new course where I embrace being the sum of my experiences and charge into my fears; that begins with my name.  Welcome to the book of Raef.